david.

so i figured that i could write in here so that you could read it. i know that i will talk to you tomorrow but like you said it may seem easier and better if i write it in here.

so bridget..you didnt ruin the relationship that her and her boyfriend had. not one bit. its just that you two had always been friends and now you two hang out alot. its her boyfriends fault that he cant see her anymore. i mean..why would he have condoms in his room where his dad could find them? i mean he kinda set himself up for that one. i really dont know her or him so i dont really know what else to say about that.

alisha..dont try it. please. i think it would be weird and i dont think that it would work. i dont know her either but i just have this feeling that it wouldnt work out. she totally ignored you and blew you off for almost 2 or 3 weeks and was a complete bitch. i dont care what her reason was---she shouldnt have done it to you if she was your best friend.

girls in general..you dont need a girl david to keep you on your feet. ive have a wondderful summer hanging out with boys and not having a boyfriend. its great. just hanging out &chillin with people is cool. now im not gonna lie-it would be better if there was a significant other to call and just say hey and that you are thinking about them, but i mean--shes out there. and you will find her one day. just be happy that you have friends and be happy that you have fun with them.

me..i havent been trying to ignore you but i really have been busy and trying to keep myself on my feet so i dont have to sit around and think about marshall and all the shit that has happened and make me want him back. ive been out every single night and you know that. every single time you call im with someone. im never alone. i dont like it that way and i try to stay busy. i try to be with friends so that when i go back to school i wont regret it. yea yea..i know what youre thinking..emily goes to our school. well shes an exception. she has no choice but to be with me because i make her. haha. but really im not ignoring you. just i guess i was a bit down for a while because of the whole marshall thing and i wasnt really wanting to talk to people alot. i went through a stage where i was always constantly thinking about marshall and i needed a way out. so thats when i started to be social again. marshall has not only torn me apart but i think he has changed me to where i wasnt wanting to do anything at the beginning.....BUT now that he is gone i feel better and im beginning to come around more and hang out with people constantly. actually--emily is asleep in my bed right now. so that goes to show i try to make the most of it. marshall was a big mistake and sometimes i wish i had never met him.

ryan on the other hand..i think he would be totally different. i think that he would be a good boyfriend. i mean hes waited around for me since junior year of high school. hes liked me for forever and i never really gave him a chance but now that i hang out with him all the time i am starting to see what a good guy is. i dont think he will be some bi polar asshole like the others. especially the most recent ex. it would really suprise me if he was. you just gotta know ryan i guess. hes just...i dont know really. i think he really and truly likes me. unlike the other ones that i tried. all except for you of course.

you..make the most of summer. go and have fun, but come home earlier and just chill and make time for yourself at night. do what you gotta do to make yourself happy, not everyone else. you are the only one that you control. if youre not happy doing something that someone else wants you to, then what good is that? youre making someone else happy but then going home and thinking about it and wondering why you even did it. dont live for everyone else. live for you. and your family. and ME of course. haha.

david you know that i love you. and you are my best friend. i dont think that i could have anyone else be so into me like you are. you help me when im down, you are the first one to call me when something happens, you are the one i call when i need you, you love me for me and thats all i need. and i love you for you, but i dont like the you that you are being. i dont know david to be upset and down. i know david to be happy because he made a good grade on his computer program. i know david to text to say he misses me. and i also know katie and david..inseperable. and it DOES suck that you are so far away and that we cant be together this summer. hang in there. school will be starting again soon. its only another 6 weeks and ill see you. ill start talking to you more. sorry ive been so busy...

i love you david. know that. and im here. talk to me and dont be silly by writing lj entries and making me read them. im a person you can talk to and ill help you.

one more time...i love you.

xoxo. night.

love. katie

Current Mood: worried

so. papaws buried. and i miss him more than ever. i thought that finalizing things would make it 100x better. not really... its so weird to think about it. and even more weird when i was there looking down at his tombstone. it didnt seem real--and when we even put his ashes in the ground it seemed even more unreal. i just didnt know what to think about it all. im sittin at home with nothing to do. when im alone and bored i begin thinking about everything..which sucks. and i wish i could see marshall. i do but i dont. i guess i just want someone to hold me while i cry. its a girl thing i suppose. i havent really thought alot about marshall lately until today. and not even today until mom and dad left to go eat in clay. i didnt wanna go..so i didnt. it seems like nothing will get better. sigh. i gotta hang in there. pray for me.

ps. david-sorry i couldnt come see you. mom and dad were being complete asses. i promise i will come see you soon. promise..

Current Mood: blank

i get pretty mushy in here sometimes.
i think its time for my frist friends cut.
if i cut you, its not cuz you arent my friend..
its cuz you dont comment.
ever.
♥
if you are a regular of my lj.
and i cut you.
just comment.
and ill add you back.

this weekend will totally rock.

i cant wait until this week is OVER!!
midterms and 5-page papers galore!
but i dont have class until 6:30 on wednesday night.
thats ALWAYS a +.

THIS WEEKEND:
fri.
going to the ville. the louis-ville that is.
to see mom and dad.
sat.
coming back to lex vegas. lexington that is.
apartment shopping with parents.
sun.
UK vs. FLORIDA bitches.
hopefully theyll play like WILDcats. and not PUSSYcats.
were painting our faces and making signs and everything.
were goin all out.
yay.

then monday.
yucky.

BUT THEN...
SPRING BREAK BABY!!
even thought that wont be anything exciting.
ill get to hang out with ryan and lauren.
maybe others.
who knows.

OHHH.
high school facebook is for losers.
you guys should have to wait just like we did.
college facebook is for l♥vers.

chocolate covered cherries and seedless watermelons. ♥
cant wait until summer.

Current Mood: hopeful

next week will suck.
majorly.
school
monday=interior design test #2.
tuesday=2nd draft of english paper due.
wednesday=anthropology midterm. and interior design analysis #2 due.
thursday=final draft of engligh paper due. and sociology quiz.
friday=anthropology extra credit lecture + 2 page summary.
then i have to rewrite my first english paper.
him
he is coming back around.
just as things get better...
they seem to get worse.
he gets pissed for no reason.
and talks shit about not only me, but the people i care about.
and it really pisses me off.

just way too much stress.
and today i sat and cried.
after i got my english paper back. and saw that i had to rewrite it...i think its when i lost it.
i sat on a bench by the student center and cried.
i also got my interior design analysis back on monday.
C.
ahh.
i got my art-history test back today.
C.
ahh again.
but it was an essay test.
and it was VERY hard.
so i was ok with that grade.
the english paper absolutely broke me.

tonight kinda made me feel better.
i went and babysat for camden.
made some $$.
studied for my ID test.
came back.
went and watched RENT [yes again] with david mark kevin and emily.
now im about to crash.

i cant wait until next weekend.
mom and dad are coming up here for the UK game vs. Florida.
2 great things.
the week will be over and ill get to see mom and dad.
so im looking forward to it.
this weekend i have to work my ass off.
then next weekend...
i get to chill.
and relax.
just takin it easy.
im excited.

night lover.

Current Mood: aggravated

i miss meaghan.
i hate being so far away.

Current Mood: cold

good day.
lovin it.
the old katei is here to stay.

tonight me and emily dressed up.
and went downtown and ate dinner.
at deshas.
it was soooo yummy.

well tonight is thirsty thursday.

see you kids tomorrow.

Current Mood: bouncy

luckily...louisville went well.
everythings fine.
we havent faught in a while.
wow.
we arent dating...
but i guess you can say we are together.
hell i dont know.
complicated subject.

today is valentines day.
ewwwwww.
mom asked me to be her valentine.
which made me smile.
:)
i love mom so much.
dad is helping deliver flowers for my brother-in-laws family owned flower shop.
its crazy on valentines day.
just imagine...
ahhh.

well im not going to english today.
i need to do some homework.
and i need a nap.
im kinda grumpy today.

later gator.

Current Mood: flirty

this weekend=eh. ok. i suppose.

so emily went to morehead.
and i am stuck here.
i went over to wallys last night.
hes a friend of my cousins.
rob[my cousin]came to lexington.
hes at WKU.
we hung out last night.
partied it up.
you know how it goes.
i stayed there last night.
stayed there most of the day today.
watched the UK game.
and teh definately suck.
lost to vandy again.
ahh.
i went to get arbys for dinner.
went and got a new phone.
came back to the dorm.
and im bored as hell.
i was gonna go out with raven and the gang.
but they never called.
i dont feel like getting drunk tonight.
i was last night.
and the night before. ha.
marshall got mad at me last night.
because i was drunk.
and thats stupid.
what hes worried about is unreal.
why worry about unreal things?
gosh.
boys boys boys...*shaking head*
why even worry with them?
but what would i do without 'em?
gosh.
comlicated stuff.
im gonna go relax and watch some tv.
night yall.

Current Mood: apathetic

good day.
and that makes me smile.

Current Mood: calm